hello xanga world, it has been a while hasn't it? i find myself creeping on here now and then, from time to time, every other day.. etc., but i never feel compelled to write up an actual post. today's a different day.

i am getting pretty old (20), however for the first time in my life i am sharing a room with my little sister. as we are both on winter break from school, we found ourselves cramped up in this tiny bedroom with our things scattered everywhere. we are investing in bunk beds. rules, i know! it's pretty fun to live with her, she's much cooler now that she's not annoying ;).

james has left for tour again, in europe this time. he'll be back in a couple weeks and i'm hoping this time flies by as quickly as it normally does. it's as if i just suddenly blink my eyes, a year has gone by. that's what time is like for me now. too quick. it's tomorrow too soon. however, i can appreciate that. i can't say anything spectacular is going on in my life right now...

time in life is just spent on waiting. i am just waiting for tomorrow, for the next few weeks, for school to be over, for another semester to start.. what's after all that? it's too scary to think about, ah!

i don't really know what came over me to all of a sudden update this thing again. it's not like anyone reads this but i digress..

second year of college is not that fun. everything is familiar, which is nice, but the work is just.. nonstop! all i want to do is put everything on pause and just relax. even taking a nap ruins my schedule for the day, bumping back and losing all the time i have for doing work. its fun to be back otherwise.

things and people that i knew last year are different this year, maybe it's me being lame but who knows. the only thing that hasn't really changed is my relationship with james. it feels like just yesterday that we met but in reality that was a whole year ago..

james left for tour today! it'll be a lonely couple weeks to say the least. i'm probably going to spend this entire vacation working. ugh! i honestly cant wait to head back to school. i feel trapped at home and immobile. lets start the countdown...