im home today for my birthday! its on tuesday (ill be 19) but my family's celebrating it today. i cant wait to go back to school though, i got moved out of my triple at school.. into a new double! i cant wait to make the space mine and be comfortable. todays a really busy day though, im going to see the house in haverhill for the first time and then im going to pack up some of my stuff to bring there.

i guess a little back tracking is somewhat necessary. this past week was very much like a positive graph. it started close to negative 4 when things werent going too great, and now its going in a nice upward slope of 7 or 8. im beginning to be more accustomed to school, and the drive home isnt too bad anymore, i like singing to say anything the whole way :]. oh and speaking of say anything! im seeing a concert the end of this month with eisley, moneen, and moving mountains! i cant wait! and the the day after is halloween! yay! the start of this month is pretty great!

it's about 2:40 in the morning, no classes tomorrow, but tons of errands. hopefully we'll be moving the furniture in our dorm to be more.. liveable. although right now its not that bad, i dont know how long i can actually go with creeping around a bunch of clothes on the floor, my bed in the air, and my computer compressed against the door. don't get me wrong, my roommates are pretty awesome, we're just a bit cluttered. anyways, a lot has been going on lately. making new friends at school is pretty sweet, being on my own is awesome.

but here come's where im a bit stuck. im just sitting around my room, trying to find just something to do with my time. i could read, make hemp bracelets, do some other reading types of things, or i could just do what im doing now: nothing. ive realized there's a lot of waiting to do in life, whether it be for love and relationships, for shuttle buses or traffic, waiting to go home, or most presently, for my laundry. waiting patiently usually makes sense if you want the outcome to be good. say, if i took my laundry out too early, i would be left with a pile of damp clothes, completely unwearable and on the opposite spectrum, if i fully wait out the 60 or so minutes, it'll be warm and fluffy and nice. but does the same go for things that i want? if i wait too long will they still be there to snuggle me?

questions of an only slightly sane me desperate for bed. sorry!